Lucy

"My journey with TMP started when I first walked through the door October 2022. 

I was already 5 years clean and was struggling with my mental health. I didn’t know how to accept my past and how to forgive myself. On the outside, I have always been bubbly, caring and kind, on the inside I still hated myself. In my own eyes, I see myself as a “dirty druggy”. I didn’t deserve any help, support, or love. I didn’t like myself, let alone love myself. 

My emotions came to a head, I was scared as I didn’t know what was going to happen next. I had two choices, to take away the pain I was feeling. One was to use and the other was to self-harm. I chose the latter. As I self-harmed I immediately called the crisis team, who were amazing. 

I reached out to TMP and was offered an assessment. The first drop in I attended was the connection group, this group grabbed me by the heart immediately. I attended both sessions weekly without fail as well as the Women’s group. During this period, I was given a place on the 6-week course (Recovery Support Programme) to which I graduated from. Those 6 weeks changed my life and saved my life. I was finally able to hold my head high without holding onto the guilt and shame. I forgave myself. 

Fast forward to March 2023. I applied for the cleaning role at TMP and was offered the role. Alongside the cleaning I also volunteered as a Recovery Connector. 

As of today, I am very proud to work for TMP as a Trainee Recovery Support Practitioner."